I really feel that I have been doing well.....
I have not been overindulging in the endless wonders of Junk Food, nor have I been eating around the clock.... (Like Usual)

I really want to try Nutrisystem at least for a month to see if it truly works.... I see it on TV and am just not sure..... I went on the website and it is just sooooo expensive... Now mind you if it works and I were to loose weight on it then I would praise it up like crazy and even continue to help me on my journey........ But, I cannot spent the + $300 to have it not work... :-(

I spent $145 on the Herbalife system that failed..... I knew some people who loved it but suffered a great deal of frustration while using it and of course I had to try it.... I saw a friend of mine loose 40lbs in 3 months using it..... She failed to tell me that it was hard to stick on and she was Hungry, and Grumpy for the whole time.......Oh well, money down the drain.............

Well, still chuggin a long.......... see you all soon Hopefully Half of me!!!! LOL wishful thinking so short into my goal but I WILL DO IT!!!!

Hi! I am a bit worried about the upcoming weekend....Well July 4th is tomorrow!
There is always so much food and temptation that I worry I will give in and disrupt what I only just started........ I can do this! (I have to keep telling myself that)....... Is there anyone out there that has any advice on how to stay on track?????

Well Everyone, the first day went great! I ate well and did not cave into my food desires! Mainly because I did not buy the junk that I normally do...... Last night I went out and bought fresh Zucchini, Squash, and Eggplant.... made a Tuscan Soup! Yey and Go ME!!!! LOL.......

Anyway the soup is very filling and loaded with veggies!

Starting on Day 2!

First and Foremost,

I am going to be able to look in the mirror and smile, It may take a while and a lot of hard work on my part, but I will do it! I know that decreasing my weight will help me to acheive this goal, but I need to dig down deeper as well!

Second,

I am going to set mini goals and my main goal..........

My Main goal is to loose: 70lbs......Wow writing that and seeing it on paper is Big!

My First Mini Goal is to loose 30 lbs in the next four months........

Okay here I go......

Hi, I am frustrated...
Very frustrated...

Over the years my weight has gone up. Everything seems to be going up, weight, age, pant size. I am a mother of three and I really cannot blame my children for my weight gain. Yes, after each one of them my hips stretched out more than before. However, after my second child I became a wonderful size 3 again, with minimal effort! My weight started to go up after my husband and I started having problems and did the separation thing. I now have my third child, but weigh more than when I was pregnant with her.

I do not know, I guess all those years of depriving myself yummy treats, or bingeing and then being strict for a month have caught up with me........ It hurts, It hurts to look in the mirror and see myself. I feel so ugly! and trapped. I know that I should be happy with myself and all, but it is so hard.

Now, summer time is the worst! I see all these beautiful women in bikini's and tanning. Where I have to do all I can to hide my rolls. Deep down I hate them! I know that I shouldn't and truthfully I really don't. I am jealous! That is the Truth! I hate me! For letting myself Go!

It is a bit hard to let words run out and know that others are going to read it and even judge it. In time, all my feelings will be let out on this blog and Now My Challenge Begins................